Definitely Going Dark For a While Now

[aearwen2]

I got a call from the hospital tonite; my husband has been re-admitted to the ICU with extremely high CO2 numbers, spiking fevers, and unresponsiveness. I will be talking to Hospice sometime tomorrow, as he finally sometime yesterday or today has expressed a wish to come home one last time. I will see it done, if at all humanly possible.

My daughter and I have been preparing ourselves to the extent we could for this, but there really ISN'T any way to prepare for this, is there? We've been married 40 years - he will leave a huge hole in my world.

I'll see you folks on the other side of the dark tunnel I'm in. Until then, hug your loved ones tightly. Time is not our friend.

Namasté.

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[telemicus]

I am so so sorry hon. Yeah I don't think you really can prepare for something like this. You and your family are in my prayers. Forty years...wow.

[aearwen2]

Well, life goes on, and Hubby has tried to rally. He is in the process of being weaned off the BiPAP machine, and I've been informed he MUST have a CPAP on when he sleeps from here on in. He's still very weak - can't sit up on the side of the bed or move his legs - but the doctor is having me try to motivate him a bit to do some informal PT to try to start building strength. His MRSA is still active and being treated with IV antibiotics, however.

The good news is that he isn't as yet ready for Hospice (altho there have been a couple of times he's come close.) The bad news is that there's no way in God's Green Acres that he could come home in the shape he's in at the moment. He's months away from that at the very best. Still, there's hope now, where a week or so ago there wasn't much.

What a rollercoaster!

[telemicus]

woah, rollercoaster indeed, but that's great news love! I hope he keeps rallying and the PT helps ♥ keep us updated when you can *HUGS*