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Have I ever mentioned that I absolutely *DETEST* the "new, updated look" of LJ? I've kept my feed on the "old" version all this time. Until, evidently, today. Now I have no idea how to get back to the look I'm used to, and I'm thoroughly disgusted.

No class, no individuality. FAH!!! How do you folks tolerate this garbage?

/end rant

*edited to add* For some reason, posting this kicked me back to my old version. WTF????
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I just had to log out and log back in again - and then hit my regular link to LJ - in order to get past the stupid, ugly, not-at-all-wanted "new" LJ interface and back into my comfortable old one. What is it about software that the developers try to force us to upgrade, whether we want to or not?

The new interface leaves far too much space for, I assume, ads. I pay for my account, so I don't want anything that even suggests ads.

Damn them.
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I'm an idiot.

I know - I KNOW - that I'm sensitive to gluten. I had been off it for maybe 2 months when, in 2011, I visited Savanna in OR and didn't worry about it. I paid for it in aches and pains after coming home. What's more, I stayed "clean" and religiously read ingredient labels, etc. It's been 3 years now, and I swore to myself I'd learned my lesson.

Wrong.

Two weeks ago, I decided to test my sensitivity by deliberately eating food prepared with stuff with gluten in it, namely Campbell's Cream of Mushroom Soup. It makes the most delightful and delicious gravies, and I'd really missed that. So I had it a couple of times. And then I got some prepared soup that had wheat in it.

Now I can barely hobble around the house, with the inflammation in my left knee so bad I can't really put any weight on it at all.

I've told my family that the next time I start making noises like "lemme see if I'm still sensitive to gluten" that they are to shoot me. Or knock me upside the head and then, while I'm on the floor, remind me of my not being able to walk for days on end.

I'm an idiot.

And gluten is addictive - and very bad for me.

I need to remember that.
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My encounter with Real Life™ as an obstacle to NaNo continues apace. I had the entire morning planned as a writing time - but NO!!! JJ has to decide, after he gets to work, that his ankle hurts too much for him to spend all day on it (okay - I can understand that a bit, but still...) so I lost over an hour in commute time driving the 25 miles down and 25 miles back to pick him up. No, he didn't feel like he could walk back to the bus stop (that's right in front of the job site) and take the bus home and have me pick him up at this end's bus stop. No, I had to drop everything and drive down there now, now, now.

*sigh*

There are times that Attention Deficiency Disorder can be a real PITA. We got the call back on the x-ray - no fractures and no broken bones. So this is either a sprain or something else. He *does* have a rather long-lived bruise on the ankle-bone, so something is going on. But I honestly think that he's milking it for as much attention as he can get - and right now, that doesn't sit very well. He goes back to work tomorrow - and no, I will not be driving down again to pick him up if he decides he hurts too much.

Anyhoo, so I did finally get to write some - although not as much as I was hoping. Hopefully I'll have better luck tomorrow.



3765 / 50000 words. 8% done!
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Yeah, I know I haven't posted at all this year. Bad Aeärwen! I'll make that up to you now by yakking, complaining and ranting about my New Year so far.

All kinds of news, musings and fussings under the cut, for those interested. )

So there you have it. My 2014 so far. Never a dull moment around here, I swear!

Have a good week, folks.
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I'm starting to wonder if having things go awry is a characteristic of the middle phase of NaNo, because today was an excellent example of things not going according to plan at all!

Oh Hell. I was just starting this blog when I got the kind of phone call that simply blows one's mind and blows any semblence of knowing what the world's about out of the water completely.

My daughter in Oregon is in the hospital - tried to slit her wrists.

A mother's rant under the cut )

I'm not exactly sure I'll even have word count tomorrow. A lot depends on whether I can concentrate and use Phoenix as a distraction when I'm between phone calls and/or arrangements. But, since I did actually make my count today, here's my progress:



23463 / 50000 words. 47% done!

For what it's worth.

Phooey.
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Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] alikat7 at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] belladhanna at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] jendavis at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012

Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] valawenel at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] sheryden at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] meridian_rose at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] brontefanatic at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] philstar22 at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] lk737 at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012

Please repost this? I have never begged for one of my posts to be boosted. I am just so worried for my friends and want you to know.

According to this article, dated March 15, 2012:
http://www.digitaltrends.com/webnews/major-isps-turn-into-copyright-police-by-july-says-riaa/

"File-sharers, beware: By July 12, major US Internet service providers (ISPs) will voluntarily begin serving as copyright police for the entertainment industry, according to Cary Sherman, chief executive of the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA). The so-called “six-strikes” plan is said to be one of the most effective anti-piracy efforts ever established in the US."

The article goes on to give details. After six notices, internet providers will decide to throttle a person's internet speed, or cut it off altogether. I don't know if they will crack down on torrents only, or if it is up to the internet provider. I get the sense it is up to the internet provider. So some people could get away with downloading non torrents, while others might get their internet service cut off. I urge you to click it and read, as we all know people who download.

No more downloading eps of your favorite shows for vidding, gifs, or fanfiction art. No more downloading screencaps possibly. I'm so sorry my friends. I don't even know if BT Guard will work to protect you, but I would google it if I were you. It is a professional service that supposedly can protect you from the invasive eyes of your internet provider.

Just, my friends, please make each other aware. Please be aware of the date JULY 12TH. Mark your calendar and double check with your internet provider by then. If you start receiving notices of downloaded activity, this is why. And your internet service could be throttled or cut off.

Fox news confirms this:
http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2012/03/17/us-isps-become-copyright-cops-starting-july-12/

Youtube video explaining this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5OG0R-yS-c

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Yes, we observed Sept 11 out here on the "left side" of the country too.

Miscellaneous thoughts from a West Coaster under the cut - beware the rant )

And that, my friends, is why I grieve on 9/11: I grieve the loss of life in passenger airplanes used as weapons by men with no morals, in the WTC and Pentagon which were used as targets; and I grieve the loss of the American military and the American spirit in general as a result in the decade that has followed.
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Musing and Thoughts on the current LOTRFF embrogglio under the cut )
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I hate dentists. )

Life sux sometimes, don't it?
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Well, I've been home a whole two days now...

General whining and complaining under the cut - disregard unless you're a glutton for punishment )

Hopefully, tomorrow will see me starting to be my old self again. I'm sick & tired of being run down, mentally and physically. I need to worry about my son, who still hasn't found a permanent place to live up there in OR.

I think I just visited those "Interesting Times" that are essential to the Chinese curse. I'm ready to go back to my dull, uninteresting existence, as "interesting" certainly isn't all it's cracked up to be!

Update #1

Feb. 14th, 2011 06:48 pm
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Well, I’ve been here three days now... )
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I'm on my way to Arizona. Tomorrow. Very unexpectedly. )

Such fun.

Not.
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You know the spiel: if you don't want to read, move to the next entry.
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WendWriter has NOT publicly posted the names of those she has banned from participating in her Golden Quills. This means another innocent nominator could find themselves in a similar situation to the one I was in.

This violates the terms of my retraction.

Drama may continue with my blessings.
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More LotR fandom issues being discussed here. Unless you are interested, you might want to move along to the next entry on your friends page. I'm not responsible for any boredom or exasperation or eye-rollage to be caused by the following.
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Well, at least the light of day being aimed at WendWriter and her Golden Quills Awards' hidden agenda has convinced her that maybe being sneaky and using other, innocent, people to "get back" at those she dislikes isn't the best idea:

http://wendwriter.livejournal.com/129414.html?view=178310

(read the comments on that one, and then...)

http://wendwriter.livejournal.com/129837.html

Now, if she had just been honest about this being an exclusionary awards program to begin with, I would never have participated in the first place, never made a single nomination, nor felt it necessary to throw a public fit.

These are her awards, and she is allowed to tailor them as she sees fit. If she is honest and up front about not wanting these five people involved in any way, then a person can make an informed decision as to whether or not they wish to participate. There is no skullduggery, no "let's not tell anybody else" about it. That, my friends, is where the unprofessionalism and unethical nature of her actions lay, and why I felt it necessary to do what I did.

Therefore, as far as I'm concerned, her coming out of the closet and ADMITTING that her awards are not-everybody, means this matter is finished. The moment she changes the front page of her awards program to reflect the exclusionary policy she's adopted, I would appreciate it if the discussion of this particular matter would cease.

Thank you.
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For the sake of those not interested in LotR fandom issues, extensive rant you're not interested in follows this. Read on at your own risk of boredom, exasperation, whatever.
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You know, under normal circumstances, I'm a pretty easy-going person. I work hard to avoid drama in just about any form, try to make a point of not taking sides in kerfluffles among my Internet friends, and generally preach a message of "live and let live." I honestly believe that one should live by one's principles, even in this "second life" that we all lead here in cyberspace - if one espouses "Do unto others", then one's behavior toward one's neighbors needs to demonstrate exactly what one expects to come back at one. It's a simple, probably idealistic belief, but it is one that I hold dear and which has influenced some of my public actions.

It is influencing this post today.

As a fan fiction writer - hell, as a writer in general - I know how valuable feedback and ego-strokes are. Writing is, by its very nature, a very lonely pastime/occupation; validation through feedback, reviews, peer-run awards programs - especially in the world of fan fiction - are essentially the only "pay" we get. Thus it is that I expect the contests that I participate in to be run fairly, objectively, without bias toward or against any writer or group of writers. I expect these contests to be about the quality of the writing, and absolutely nothing more.

Believing this, I participated in the MEFAs this year - both as a reviewer and as a nominated author - and found the awards process very revealing, run exceedingly fairly, and the results satisfying. With that in mind, I noted that another award event had started its nominations season, and I threw myself into nominating some of the stories I really felt met the criteria posted by the awards admin.

As you can imagine, I expect that my nominations to any awards event would be treated with respect: added to the pile submitted by others, and then voted on by the various members. But, it seemed, I had fallen victim to a serious case of false advertising. The Golden Quill Awards, which portrayed itself as "open to anybody," is most definitely not open to just anybody. The administrator, WendWriter, has decided that only those people she approves of can (1) be nominated; or (2) participate.

I was finally made aware of this inconvenient truth when I received an email (copies of which I will forward without hesitation to anyone who asks for it) which said, in part:

"certain people will be excluded from the awards because I refuse to reward people who behave abusively towards me. I don't want to make this public, so I simply deleted the post you made about him.

It's not fair to involve you, so I won't go into detail about the whys and wherefores.

I will say that if I see nominations for Nieriel Raina, Ignoble Bard, or Aislynn Crowdaughter, I'll delete those, too.

Sorry to drop this on you, you didn't know.

I hope that doesn't put you off nominating other people. I get along fine with everyone else.

I hope you're not upset by this."


Now, this email refers to a story I nominated by Thranduil Oropherion Redux, which I thought was exquisitely written, poignant and funny. I had also nominated brilliant stories by Nieriel Raina, Thundera Tiger, Jael, Linda Hoyland, and Virtuella. It seems, however, that only the stories by Thundera Tiger, Linda Hoyland, and Virtuella were allowed to remain. All of the others have been summarily deleted.

Why?

Because, evidently, the administrator "doesn't like them" (the authors).

And why doesn't she like them?

She doesn't like them because they "behave abusively towards me."

Is she transparent about this? Does she turn around and make it a point to let anybody else wanting to participate in the awards process know that her personal grievances with certain people will prevent some nominations from going through? You know, to save herself from having to write more similar emails?

No. "I don't want to make this public, so I simply deleted the post you made about him."

I don't know about anybody reading this, but I find it the height of hypocrisy to climb on a high horse about some people who "behave abusively", only to turn around and not only abuse them in return, but in the process abuse anybody with the temerity to actually read and enjoy their writings enough to nominate them. This is a very clear-cut case of "Do as I say, not as I do." And what is more, she apparently knows how bad what she's doing would look were it known publicly, because she attempts to do it behind the scenes. She deletes perfectly legitimate nominations with impunity.

One might wonder if the list of "not approved" authors is longer than the one she gave me? I note that Jael's name was not on the list of "abusive" people - and yet her nomination was deleted as well.

How many more emails similar to this one is she writing? What does this say about the respect that she gives me as a reader and potential participant in her awards program? What does this say about the respect she gives ANYBODY, for that matter?

Oh yes, let us not forget that it's unfair to involve me, so she won't tell me anything about the situation or her criteria for exclusion, and she hopes I'm not upset. Well. If you're still reading this, you probably figured out by now that I AM upset! VERY upset. By her deleting my nominations, I have been dragged into a personal grudge match in which I had no previous stake, and I'm now involved in a very personal manner. Needless to say, I deeply resent it.

I don't give a damn about who has done what to whom. It had and continues to have absolutely nothing to do with me, and therefore, in my opinion, has absolutely no business being brought up in an awards event. I'm all about the writing. Every other awards event I've ever participated in before this has been all about the writing.

Evidently Golden Quills is not. It is, in fact, revealed to be a poorly-disguised excuse to abuse certain people in a back-handed manner and to go about it in an underhanded fashion, making those who have no part in any quarrel implicit in the abuse.

I do NOT appreciate anybody going through and cherry-picking which of my nominations she approves of and deleting all others, no matter how privileged that person feels they might be – not in an awards process that is publicized as being "open to anybody," which at its essence implies fairness and objectivity. She has just broken the trust of an innocent (and unsuspecting) participant who only wanted to give the authors of some of her favorite stories another place to shine.

And so I am hereby announcing my intention to no longer participate in this farce in any manner.

To those I nominated whose nominations were allowed to stand, I apologize that you are being involved in this as well. It honestly is not my doing. I sincerely hope that (1) those nominations I made for your stories continue to stand, considering that I'm bringing out into the light of day something that WendWriter, as administrator, is trying desperately to keep swept quietly under a rug; and (2) that being the case, that you folks win. You deserve it. If any other, more legitimate award comes along for which your story qualifies, you can be assured I will make certain you are in the running.

To Nieriel Raina, Jael, and Thranduil Oropherion Redux, my deepest and most sincere apologies. I thought I was doing you folks a favor and giving your stories another chance to shine, and I ended up enabling an abuser to continue her campaign of abuse through me.

I didn't know. I do now. I wish I didn't. I hate this.

For what it's worth, and for the record, this will be posted on the Archives of Excellence LiveJournal community. If you do not see it there, you will know for a fact that WendWriter deleted the post. I leave you to form your own conclusions about that.

And finally, to WendWriter: this is open notice that I will be posting this exposé and denunciation in every public venue I have access to, so your attempts to sweep this under the rug by deleting it from the AoE community are doomed from the start. In fact, by deleting it, you will only be proving my point for me.

Enjoy your spotlight.

/end rant
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I'm getting pissed.

There are times I want to write a private message to one of my f-list; and do you think that LJ makes it easy to find the link to open the message window?

No.

I look, and I look - and very rarely, I stumble over the proper set of clicks to get me where I want to go.

But never when I *NEED* to do it.

C'mon, LJ!! Is it so bloody hard to put a "leave a private message" link somewhere OBVIOUS?!?!?!?!

Social networking my left elbow!

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